Honesty

It’s been awhile since I last posted (I catch myself typing that from time to time). To be honest, these last few months have been crazy! 

I’ve been dealing with health things and mental health things. I’ve been feeling like Job, except I can only hope to be as righteous as he was (I’m just being honest here). 

I’ve questioned why I’m going through the things I’m going through.I’ve been through a rollercoaster of emotions; I’ve felt anger, sadness, numbness, etc. I let my mind go to all sorts of places but it comes down to who God is.

I focused on myself and the things I was feeling, I didn’t look outside of myself or see the bigger picture. I didn’t rest in God, I didn’t embrace His peace, I didn’t maintain hope. I wanted to see what I chose to see. 

The biggest thing I’m currently working on is trusting in God. Enduring the struggles and maintaining joy even when I may not feel all that happy. From the struggles comes growth in all forms. 

I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.- Romans 8:18 (NIV)

I will push on and I’ll stay strong; I encourage you guys to do the same. Keep fighting my brothers and sisters. I love you! 

Transitions

I’m at a point in my life where I’m at a major crossing. I’m in my mid twenties, recently married, and recently graduated. Life is changing and I’m asking myself what now?

I admit that I look around me, and compare where I am with others. I have this feeling of being behind or that I’m just not doing enough, etc. I feel pretty lost, but then I realized I’m where I am supposed to be.

Amongst self pressure and the the pressures of society, I let my true identity and strength get lost. God is and will always be my only constant; there will be changes in life and I’ll have times where I have zero clue what I’m doing but that’s okay. He is my rock, He is my strength, and in Him I am more than enough. 

Maybe some of you are struggling out there. Maybe you are dealing with some heavy things or you just have no idea what path you should be walking. I want to encourage you to just breathe. Rethink your life, not according to your circumstances but in what God says is truth. Walk in peace and walk in confidence. Place your hope in God.

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Lay it down.

I choose to lay down my fears.

Lay down my worries. 

Lay down my doubts.

Lay down my future.

I lay everything down at the feet of the Father; He takes all of my burdens and He will take yours, too. ♡

“Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” – Matthew 11:28-30 (NIV)

I Am

​I am small. I am weak. I am flawed. I am sinful. I am scared. I am foolish.

I am seen, heard, and understood (Jeremiah 17:10). I am strong through Him (2 corinthians 12:9). I am perfectly made (psalm 139:13). I am covered by the blood and made clean (John 3:3-6). I am courageous because of Him (deuteronomy 31:6). I am wise by His truth which He gives (proverbs 1:7).

I am loved: it’s enough, I am enough, you are enough.

Being Young & Life

The media will tell you that being young is about making mistakes, finding who you are, and living with no regrets; your peers will embrace this message, and mirror it to you. The motto is “you only live once, and you should do whatever you want to”. I can’t disagree more.

Being young and in your twenties doesn’t give you a pass for accountability. It shouldn’t be a moment in which we let go of inhibitions for living with decency, or focusing on others. Being young and twenty means we should be even more driven to actually live, and not how the media tells us to or being sheeple who follow the latest trends. No, we should seek to find true fulfillment in our lives.

I won’t say that I haven’t made mistakes or modeled what my peers, or the latest pop song told me. I’ve done plenty from the time I turned 20 to 23. I have certainly had my fill. What I’ve found on my journey wasn’t happiness, not true happiness. Being cool or fitting in started to become superficial. I wanted more. I wanted to be real and feel real things.

My advice is to look deeper. Examine your life. Believe, have faith, love others, become less of yourself- not more. I know this is counterintuitive, but there is life waiting to be lived that does not center on yourself, and there is freedom in this.

You will make mistakes, and this is fine but do not live in them. Do not attribute them to your youth and be dismissive. Try your best everyday to outdo your yesterday. Don’t be afraid to be different , don’t be afraid to have faith, don’t be afraid to love others… don’t be afraid to live a life worth living.

The Reason 

This time of year can be a happy time for many, a bad time, or just a normal season because some people do not celebrate holidays. I do (minus the santa) but since I deal with anxiety and depression, I have good days and bad days still.

Today has been so so, but I want to encourage others to not forget to take a sabbath. Do not rest only from the activities (whether they are required or for holiday time), rest also mentally and emotionally.

When I  become really stressed out, I hear:  

Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! -Psalm 46:10 (ESV)

He is sovereign. He is the great I AM. He knows my stresses, He knows my burdens, He knows me. 

If you celebrate Christmas, do not forget the true reason. If you don’t celebrate Christmas, remember God and his sacrifice for us; the lowly, sinful creatures we are yet God gave us His son. He humbled Himself so we could come before Him. 

Love eternal is with God, all we have to do is remember Him.

Brand New

New day, new decisions. 

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come.- 2 Corinthians 5:17
Choose to start over…daily. How about we both choose to be renewed? Don’t live in the mistakes of yesterday, the slips of the tongues, the negative emotions and all they entail. 

I am choosing to have a new day with a new me, join me. 

I love you all♡